­Diabetic Cyborg Life 01/23: Difficulties & Results Part. 2

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The book Far from the Tree: Parents, Children and the Search for Identity by Andrew Solomon exposes how some approach having disabilities and hardships. I can deal with my impoverished childhood but could deal with not having Progressive multiple sclerosis pancreatitis, type 1 diabetes, chronic kidney disease stage 2, and a neurogenic bladder.

Dealing with these things as I age is abnormal and challenging as it can be. Having a normal childhood could’ve been a death sentence if I had the adult life I have now. That might be hyperbolic, but that is truly how I feel. Take out the lessons of an impoverished childhood and I could’ve not endured my progressive multiple sclerosis and all the symptoms of that.

My case of gaining from my youth and regretting my current state might be a case of nostalgia and prisoner of the moment.

Yet, I still am learning lessons from my issues now.

I could just do without the self-catheterization and issues of my diminishing memory and thought processes

Lessons are nice to learn, but at the costs of my dream career and mental wellbeing makes that costs way too much.