Diabetic Cyborg Life 01/24: Scars of Bullying
I found out on Christmas day, of all days, that mocking and insulting taunts can still trigger me like nothing else. After cooler heads prevailed, I then realized that the scar of 18 years of being a bullied child was still there. Even the family mocking me and belittling me like the various bullies did in school and suddenly I am that little overweight kid.
I knew that the mocking was being done out of a frustration that we both shared but I could not hold back the pent-up anger. I’d love to think and know that I was over all those years of being picked on. Yet, there I was a 38-year-old man feeling like I did when I was a 5- to 17-year-old being bullied.
I dealt with most of my anger issues from adolescence in various therapy sessions and here.
Nevertheless, mocking an adult as an adult can still trigger me it seems.
We ought to know better and am sure it’s grief for mom who had a part to deal with the whole understanding and frustration.
