The waiting and not knowing is excruciatingly painful,
I really question if I imagined the whole thing now,
And the lawyer played along to not upset me and to be able,
To get to the next day when she can ease me into the reality that is somehow,
I know I was shown to that health has me unable,
To work a “normal” 40 hour week right now,
My patience is thin and my optimism is my rock that keeps my stable,
I push for when I am able to sustain and not tax my parents like a cash cow.