Quirks Are Kind of My Life
- I am terribly impatient.
Seriously I want everything to happen now all the time.
2. I maybe bipolar or have a borderline personality disorder, but cannot afford to get an official diagnosis
I have vivid images of suicide pop in my head every now and then. Though, at the same time I am hopeful and hopelessly optimistic about my life. I feel the images are totally a subconscious phenomenon that I hope does not get worse. I take a psychological medication for anxiety already. I know people that suffer from being bipolar that take a less potent version than I take. I just hope that all I need is that adjusted to the amount they take and that solves my issues.
3. I feel guilty that I don’t post more dynamic videos on YouTube.
I have a channel and views, but I currently see it as a I see the Potter movies for the books, bonus content for my blog.
4. I live like a hermit after being a gym rat.
I hate leaving my house for any reason besides doctor appointments or therapy. My memories of going to the gym at least five days-a-week seem like another lifetime ago now. Then, my motion sickness issues make me question if I will even go to the movies anymore like I once loved. I fell and was discombobulated afterwards. You can read all about it here.
5. I collect things …
See my sneakers, t-shirts, toys blu-rays on IG. You have to dig if you care to look, but you can find them. No, I am not a hoarder, so don’t worry about that. Usually it mush be Star Wars, comics related or some other geeky nerdy thing I like.
6. I am anal about my diabetes
Yes, I need to chill with monitoring it so closely. I am working on it though …
7. I actually find am escape from anxiety and worry in sharing links on social media.
I spend way too much time tweeting and sharing news and content. I swear, as I said before, I am distracting myself. That’s all…
8. I don’t drive anymore
I just don’t feel safe doing it now with my multiple sclerosis (MS). I can drive if I must, but choose not to do it now. I get motion sickness and had vision issues in the past.
9. The motion sickness is an issue riding in a car now too.
I are almost to the point to having to take medication before I even get in a car.
10. I doubt I will be at the cinema much anymore.
My MS and makes me have issues with sitting in dark room for hours and trying to walk. I question going to the movies at all now. I will have to see how I feel when a new Star Wars or Marvel movie comes out in the future.