Wow, I feel that I am dealing with many similar issues. I see my struggle is not as severe as yours after reading this and other of your works. I know my own struggle all to well and can imagine it becoming as serious as yours.
I love you and feel for you. I know we have never met and are only internet and Facebook friends, but I feel such empathy towards your struggle. Know that life is worth every bit of the struggle that you are enduring. I have to tell myself that often. There is too much good to let the bad drag you down. Just remember that other people are struggling too. We can help if we just let others into our worlds.